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[06 Oct 2008|06:23pm] |
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finally everything is over. i can't wait to get my portfolio... hope the photos turn out awesome.. and my models were fabbb.... i miss my cholas seriusly.. ahahah no more fun make up at class.... but yeah.. i guess it was one helluva experience... i wonder if akinas given birth?... hrmmmmmmmmmmmm............... anyways yes its true i have to admit it make up is much more fun than hairstyling!!!!! yes!!! ahahahahah
i miss my hafiz khan!!!! muahksz!<3<3<3 ahahaha...
raya's not fun anmore. esp when the routine has been change... im not sure im ver gonna look forward to anmore raya in the near future.. oh well.. i really do miss her alot this raya...
-a quick tip for fair skin ladies.. keep your skin free from pigmentations as you grow older.. use sun block. its very important cause fair skin ladies tend to look older quicker then dark skin ladies.or if you have other cleanser, toner and moisturisers that has uv protection in them..-
anyways, ive put on at least 2 kg of weight since raya.. after loosing about 14kg.. hhaha.. its true hey when they say loosing is easy but maintaining is hard work.. oh well i can start working out again soon enuff..................
and my sayang ive missed u sooo much.. hadnt ben able to see each other since the start of raya.. ehehehe... muahskz!!!!! we'll see each other soon okay baby!!!!!
<3 sid
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| i dun get it.. |
[09 Jun 2008|10:45am] |
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why people would brag about how sad and pathetic their live is when everything is over and done. when you know she's not coming back. why do you need to keep on saying things like. ur sad, ure lonely, u see her. i mean can't you just keep it to yourself at least?? or ask your own mum about it. it's like asking for simpathy from others.
hey i know how lonely and sad and you have no idea what that actually means until u are in my position ok!
and come on we all know how much of an attention freak u are. and how u keep thinking you're so smart that u keep loosing every good decent boy in this world and keep seeking the "bad boys" kind. oh well, im not gonna waste my advice on people who are toooo stubborn to even listen for once.
anyways, the gowns are going fine. designs are nearly done. im soo excited.. 6 mnths left. and oh my gosh i cannot wit for my 21st birthday. its gonna be awesome. everyone i love is gonna be here!!! and im loving it!
yst. sentosa family day event. moms company. was alryte i guess. played frisbee, fun fun fun. we lol alot. my foot hurts. ahahah.. but i dun care. cause i enjoyed myself to the max!
oh gwenstepfunny seleke siak!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......... lol
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| she went away.. safely.. |
[30 Apr 2008|09:52am] |
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i miss her soo much, i miss her asking the same questions over and over again, i miss how she would sing out all the numbers of the blocks we live in. how she sings in the morning just to wake us up. how she nags on us. i will never ever forget her. the day she took her last breathe is the day i will always remember ive lost someone soo preacious. far more than anything else in this world.
<3love u always nyai!
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[29 Mar 2008|02:47am] |
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been staying home alot these days... i miss HIM!!! i hate NS. its like taking someone away from me.. nuthing 'happening' or 'interesting' happened lately. i just miss HIM alot these days.
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| he said. focus on your present task and u will do well. that is why i love him. |
[16 Feb 2008|10:17pm] |
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"you might want to ask yourself, 'was i often distracted at work or did i usually pay full attention to what was important then?'
'think about your life outside work..'
how present were you when you were with your sweetheart? was he/she important enough for you to focus your whole hearted attention on him/her when you were togather?
im a relationship you need to focus on the whole person. by being more aware of their "good" and "bad" qualities, you can address potential problems, instead of being side-tracked by them.
its been days since i met mr khan. because, we've both been sick. and seriusly the itching,and soaring is killing me. how i wish i can scrub it off. haha. planning for more fun stuffs, before he actually go for his national service. trip to the zoo maybe. and paintball !! haha..
my brother is getting married early 2009. the planning seems to be going fine. well, i'm not done with my designs for our dresses. ahahaha. its gonna be a mixture of textile. yeayyy!!
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[16 Feb 2008|01:04am] |
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yesterday was one tiring yet fun day. for the first time in my entire life i did a job which is far beyond my imagination. yes.. work have always be a glamour or a fashion issue for me.. but i did something which i think made me more than proud.. a one time job under singapore post.. since my brother offered that they had some valentines day project.. i figured why not.. something different...
anways... we worked in teams.. and i teamed up with two guys.. one was a mamat motor.. i really cannt recall his name!! and nooRENdi the normal laid back easy going dude.. which i think i spend most of the day with.. ahahahahaha..
im glad i can make frens easily... if i can't i'd prolly rot myself to the ground and shrinkkkkkkkk...... anyways we had to cover tanjong pagar... with cik hassan our leader.. reminds me of my dad.. mr "asan" ahhahaha... half of the day was well spent with sweat and muscle building.. and the other half was for me a bit dissappointing cause we spent almost 90% of it not doing anything... and me n ren even manage to walk to coffee bean back to the van.. chilleks and walk again.. sheeshhh*
i must say i prolly have the BEST brother in the world.. how sweet.. he actually brought bread and gave me ciggaratte while i was having a break.. ok la.. the ciggie part maybe not as good as it sounds.. but heyy.. it shows he cares for me.. ahahahahaha..
oh and i must say.. walking around make me loose a few poundddddd.. ahahha.. not much but worth it! greaT!!
soo till then.. this is a blog of me n my bro.. but 90% is all me here!! ahahahaha.. kelaka seram ah! ahahah k la.. toodles byes!
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| a sweaty and tiring day |
[28 Nov 2007|06:17pm] |
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sentosa was fun yst.. though im not really feeling well..we were late.. no actually elfie was late and it makes us late coz we had to wait for him anways.. was suppose to help out Beatworks with the teambuilding for this few ppl from a certain company... there were all kinds of percussion to play.. but i killed myself with a headache and sore throat. yeahh.. it gets worst... explain why im at home and i have tyme to type out ths entry todae.. nyahahahah..
anways took loads of pics and vids.. of the whole day.. yeh.. and the lame part is.. none of me was in it..hahahahah... lol... at the end of the day we got paid.. yes even me.. thou i didnt really do much.. ahahah..
after that we headed towards vivo banquet for dinner.. dinner was the best part.. coz we ate like there was no tmrw.. ahahaha... when there was only 4 of us, me, hafiz, elfie and kak yatz...
aniways... im staying home for the whole day todae... really bad sore throat and a slight fever i guess... byes! im off to bed again!!
sid!
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| messing up |
[19 Nov 2007|12:23am] |
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im in such mess ryte now... everythings a mess!! im so messed up!! really messed up! soooo messed up.. ok think u got it.. bye!
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| and soo we've heard |
[21 Sep 2007|01:56am] |
ok dis is the far most longest ive not update!!
but here it goes...
things hadnt ben going d way i plan.. and yes there were shits here and there.. plus troubles...
andways the bottom point is.. my dearest LOVE-ABLE!!!! cuzzin was here..a nd she surprised d hell outta me!!! ahahaha.. 4 am in d morning standing outside my room was a good one!!! a really good one!! ahahahah.. and yes i spent almost everyday wif her... we shared storied and secrets and talk the whole night away.. and sleep d whole morning away.. ahahah.. seriusly.. as in the WHOLE morning!! hahaha..
enjoyed every sigle day wif her.. although there were tymes when i cud tell she was irritated wif those nosey family who wanna bring here touringa rnd Sg as if she's a 10 year old.. ahahahah..
oo00oo ahh i lost my bra in my boyfrens VESPA!!! ahkahkaha..
anways.. someone have ben giving e threats.. and seriusly it aint dat scary.. ahahha.. coz remember... ader pergi ader balik =)
and soo i shall update again... o00o.. work this sunday.. Vive Salon~ ahahah paragon~ weee~~
im going to aussie soon and i dun care!!!
xoxo
sid!<3
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| i wanna love you |
[17 Apr 2007|11:06pm] |
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haiz.....
im bored with life... everyday it's the same ol' routine..
i can't wait to be _________... why? i dunnoe... i want my freedom and be able to do wad i want... im probably the poorest rich kid in town... hmmm... its not that i wanna be far away from my famili.. im just sick and tired of being tooo close at times... it's like.. having ppl glued to my ass wherever i wana go n wadever i wanna do...
you said i can't be trusted.. why? cause i lie too much... or maybe because u were once like me? or let me see... u dun trust d ppl im with.. or is it because.. u dun get much frens like i do when u were younger? u accuse me of things.. and, u think that i have no feelings. u listen to ppl alot.. u watch too many teevee shows about how pathetic teenage life can be, and u compare me to them. you don't see the differents between what i do and what i don't do.. u always pick on my negative side. u wanted me to be honest and tell you what is wrong with me, u wanted me to share my problems with you. but, have you thought about the way u ask me about them? ure not sincere enough. u are not my advisor, u can never be. its not i don't want u too, but u never showed interest in my life. everything is about what you want. and everyday is about how you planned it. u can never be a good listener, because you don't understand me. u dun noe me. u dun want to know me. you never did. everything you said to me, is what you want me to do. u never let me think for myself. even if i did, you will always say its better your way. why ask den. why bother, if in the end its still the same.
im sorry.
yours truly,
sid.
ps//i wish i could tell you.//
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[15 Apr 2007|09:37pm] |
its been very long since i last posted here~
lets see now.. alot have been happening~ a new beginning to some of us.. relationship, friendship, enemyship [is there such a thing?] hahaha..
anywaes, HIM and i remained frens.... we're still talking.. and we noe where we stand as frens...
been chilling alot with nys and zee.... getting to know others well can really get on ones nerve at times... i get it now, why we are soo close to the ones we hate at times... cause we noe em well.. and we noe how to treat em.. unlike others who give up easily~
still, there's one who i truly miss and seriusly i wanna see her! SAB!!! i miss u like fcuk!! haha.. no one and nuthin can seperate my love for her... i mean.. one can try saying she's the closest thing i have now.. or we are fcking close now.. but still SAB is like my sister... and i love her alot~ she's the bestest sister one can ever have.... even though.. at times she may get on my nerve..[which is why i love her more].. can't wait for our next reunion! and our next shopping spree.. and our next girls night out? or wadever shits we call it! love yah twinny!!!!
anyways, to my love Nys... im glad to be with you... thank you for everything~ ♥
hus and kisses,
Sid Valentine~
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[28 Feb 2007|06:50pm] |
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soo yst... i chilled with may n chuck.... been a while since i slacked around with them.. well i mean.. may.. i hardly noe chuck.. ahakhkahkaha... dulu ramai2 skg tinggal aku dngn may aje.. dan yang baru baru.. whakwhakwhka...
we talk about how we were in the past[dulu semue jahat jahat.. skg dah besarrr weeee...].. and the people we spend our days with... hanafi, hendra, fad, shahira, wan, jeg.... etc etc... but den.. it all evaporates into small molecules~~~ funnie larhh~~~ still waiting for my pic with chuck... baahakhaka..
gt home early today from school.. BOORRIINNGG~~~ didnt lepak.. baby is working today.. im waiting for my bro... im hungry.. wanna go out for our dinner~~ meeting mys ayang tmrw... yey.. cant wait... i miss him.. wow!!.. when he tak kerej i bising.. when he kerje oso i bising... kesian.. ahaha.. nvm.. sayang... moto u nye pasal.. kerje lah u bersungguh sungguh!!!
ouh... i guess today millie is the only happie one.. cozz i kept playing catching with him at home... his not a house cat.. but a house rabbit.. ahhahahaha.. dat sillie wabbit!! did i mention his toilet train too?? hahaah...
bye bye!!! gdnyte!!!
<3 <3 sid-
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| holidays and cranky days |
[20 Feb 2007|08:09pm] |
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soo as u all noe.. ive been spending time outside rather than at home... eventhough the malls are close. im still enjoying life to the fullest.. hmmm...
my adek sdare have been spending her holz over at my place.... she finally manage to open up herself to me... told me problems of her daily life.. yes we all have problems.. but to hear hers, marely 13 years of age... and already full of daily jobs, supermarket, housework, babysitting etc.. sounds like child labour to me... i can't help to think that she will never get to enjoy life like normal kids....
ouoh well ok my abang want to use d com! bye!
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| kiss kiss |
[15 Feb 2007|10:21am] |
been sometime since i wrote out my thoughts anger stories and blablabla....
nwaes... the past weeks i have been cancelling outing with my sexy gfs, sab, sheila and elyna... darn... not sure wen d next outing... everyone's soo anxious abt it.. ahhaaha... and i miss them!!!
ouh i wanna go out with titz, suria n letch oso.. i misss them toooo!!!! hehe... [kiss kiss]
nwas... tmrw picking up my baby cuzzin yaya. she's slping ova for d holz... and im taking her out.. gt d zoo passes already... and, most polly me my sayang my cuzin n my partner in crime is going... not sure yet tho... dan pergilah!!!
ouh and did i tell you abt my new baby love... Millie Vanillie Magnus... well i kol him millie magnus, my bro called him millie vanillie. he is sooo adorable and cute.. playful, a lil shy, and can be a bit timid. he dusnt like to be picked up alot coz he is afraid of heights.. he loves going for walks in the afternoon.. hahahah... u shuld c d way he slps, its just soo cute. hahaha.. and... he is loved by EVERYONE in d famili. i mean usually each one of my family member has their own favourites in the house..hehehe...
i have to go on a diet now, im gaining weight.. everyone is telling me to go on a diet... nanty aku jadi tulang baru takot semue hah! hakahka..
yst was V.dae, i dun really celebrate V.dae, coz everyday is a LOVE day for me.. i love u sayang!!! [kiss kiss smooch smooch]
wow i guess dis entry is gona be pretty long.. [im nt done yet]
sooo i gt my whole holz packed with activities... but all are un organize.. hahaha... zoo, sentosa, and man more.. hahakahka... i wanna take sky ride.. sshheeshh.. bro said it was nice..i wan to try lah!!
schools a total _______________ [i have no idea]... i hate setting, i admit.. i hate it soo much dat i wan to burn the curling rods!!! ergh!!! i took off my extension, and now its back to short.. i wanna cut it a lil.. even things out...
ok anwaes.. im off now!!
bye!
_SID_
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| u fckin bl00w j(|)b |
[09 Jan 2007|11:01pm] |
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first of all...
i restarted module two dis month... hmm... as a part timer.... hahaha... sooo have to complete at least 15 hours per week....
secondaly finding a job if possible... i have an interview cum audition not sure when at KCPSS, as a choreographer.... gonna go der for d interview.. plus will be negotiating about payment too... hopefully i get the job.. i will be guiding them till SYF... i know that this is a big responsibility, but im willing to try. i may not be as experience as most choreographer, but ive got passion and comfidence!
okay... now is the hit list part!!
lets begin[ dun starts aying things to me like "same same pergi same same penat" thats a fcuk up lie okay.. all this while im the one who dedicated myself most for the group... ive put my whole soul into it.. i had to push you for practice, i had to mix the songs, get the tape all by myself, i had to stay up late at night just to figure out steps and position, i was the one who paid for the battery MOST of the tyme, when i shut myself out. you guys shut ureself up too. why not go ahead and help out... do i have to tell you everything... do i need to be the one organising who does what???? but seriusly i dun care abt all those...... what pisses me off most is the word... the sentence.... "same same penat!!" fcuk u lah!!!! aku yang selame nie buat kerje tak pernah complain....
sab jugak gerek!!! thats a true fren... help out a friend in need not a fren for money!!!! you fcuking hoe!!
lots of love _SID_
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| im back !!! |
[24 Dec 2006|11:48pm] |
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just gt back today... wow!!! this is one helluva trip....
went to KL first, stayed there for a night only.... shopped alot there... clothes.... most likely... for school.... stayed at radius int. hotel at bukit bintang there.. i still prefer crown princess like i said before.. after our KFC dinner.. bakhakha.[pergi jauh makan KFC!] went back to the hotel to meet taufik's cuzzin.. this girl with her husband...
last minute they wanted to follow us to penang, soo fine... we still want our own room.. u guys can share ures we don't care... this is the part where i start to diss, taufiks cuzzin is the girl, she's like this immature bitch man.. i mean.. she's alwaes giving me this look... whenever im talking to taufik or her husband hafiz is being frenly... i mean.. wad d hell is ure problem... dun wurry i wont steal ure HUSBAND!!! or even if he is ure BOYFREN!!!! i have pride in myself...and i wont loose my dignity, beside i have my OWN!! boyfren!!!! even tho... ure husband n my boyfren have the same name.. still... mine is BETTER than EVER!!! wadever bitch.. if u wanna be the centre of attraction or the UNIVERSE perhaps, try harder next time... sorry if im born as a threat to you, but do i look like i care? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~ keep hating me... coz ure judgement dun mean much to me... word. nuff said!
and to my baby!! i love u i miss u i want you.......................... to buy me a diamond ring!![gurau lah busuk!] i miss u ayang!!! i got u something!!! weeeweeeeetttt.... hehe... chayang u!! muashkz! <3
<3_SID!
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[19 Dec 2006|10:41pm] |
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okay soo i admit i got mad too quickly at u earlier on.. and im sorrie!!.. thnx fer the movie treat!! love u lots!! ure the best thing in my life and i love u alok! muashkz!!!
watch eragon!! best best best!! thats all i can say!!
tmrw i will b awae already.... and wati is looking into the screen as i speak~~ yes... strange but.. true....
i have a list of stuffs that i need to buy.. already... well not really NEED.. but WANT!!
sayang am gonna miss u soo much baby boo!!! love u till eternity!!!!
[ps- sorie if i got mad at u earlier!!! muashkz!!! take care k baby!!! and.. dun be notty!!! I GOT MY EYES ON YOU!!!!
love _SID!
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[19 Dec 2006|11:58am] |
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i swear to god i hate u at times!!!! u piss me off alot!!!! u noe im gonna be awae for newrly a week as of tmrw.. and ure giving me this fucknut attitude!! ergh!!! bingit nye aku!!!!!
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| you got soud you got class, you got style and badass |
[16 Dec 2006|10:10pm] |
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ouhh.. watched sinbad and the seven seas, bestnyerrr... ahhaha... its in my list of disney's fav movies.
just now went out wif mum n dad... wanted to get granns a new spects.. coz her's is lost... and... sooo find my shorts.. for the trip dis coming wedsnesday... weeee... can't wait lah!!!
oh.. gonna miss my sayang alok!! watched dejavu... not really dat good lah.. just 3 over 5 rating...
anwaes.. love you sayang!! muashkz!!!
<3 SID_
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